Hi, I’m anonymous238473939 (but you can call me Emily for this story). I’m 23 years old, and if there’s one thing I’ve learned since July 2023, it’s that dating with a diagnosis like mine is a rollercoaster of emotions, self-discovery, and, ultimately, hope. I live with genital herpes simplex virus type 2 (GHSV-2), and I want to share my story.

It’s not an easy road, but I’m learning how to navigate dating while carrying this invisible weight. Maybe my story will resonate with you or give you the courage to take those first steps into a world that feels impossibly daunting at times. So, let me take you through my journey—my fears, struggles, lessons, and little victories along the way.

## Can you share a bit more about the specific challenges you’ve faced in dating since your diagnosis and how they’ve impacted your self-esteem?

The hardest part of dating after my diagnosis has been the constant battle in my head. Every time I think about getting close to someone, I’m stopped by this overwhelming fear: What will they think when I tell them? Will they reject me? Will they judge me?

My last relationship ended not long after my diagnosis. To make it even harder, I believe my ex was the one who unknowingly passed it to me. That realization was devastating. It wasn’t just about the physical symptoms of living with genital herpes (GHV-2); it was the emotional weight of it all. I felt like I had been robbed of my confidence, my desirability, and even my worth.

The first time I disclosed my status to someone new was shortly after my breakup. It didn’t go horribly, but it wasn’t great either. The rejection stung, and I couldn’t help but feel that it confirmed all my worst fears. Since then, I’ve shut myself off from the dating world. I’ve avoided any situation that could lead to a potential connection. My self-esteem took a nosedive, and every time I thought about putting myself out there, I felt paralyzed.

It’s not easy to admit, but I started associating my diagnosis with being unlovable. The stigma around herpes doesn’t help—it’s not just a physical condition; it’s a label that society makes you feel you have to carry in shame.

## What emotions do you experience when it comes time to disclose your diagnosis to someone new, and are there any strategies you’ve found helpful in managing those feelings?

The thought of disclosing my diagnosis fills me with dread. It’s like this tidal wave of anxiety and fear hits me, and I start running through all the possible scenarios in my mind. Will they look at me differently? Will they leave? Will they tell others? It’s exhausting.

What I’ve learned, though, is that the fear of disclosing is often worse than the reality of it. One thing that’s helped me is reframing how I see the conversation. Instead of thinking of it as confessing a shameful secret, I try to remind myself that it’s about honesty and respect. If someone can’t handle that honesty, then they aren’t the right person for me.

Another strategy I’ve found helpful is practicing the conversation beforehand. I write out what I want to say or even practice in front of a mirror. For example, I might start with something like, “There’s something I want to share with you because I care about being open and honest.” Framing it in a calm and confident way helps me feel more in control.

Of course, the anxiety never fully goes away, but I’ve realized that I don’t need to disclose to just anyone. It’s about finding someone I trust—someone who’s shown they value me as a person first.

## You mentioned feeling overwhelmed and shutting out potential connections—what do you think is the biggest factor behind that initial hesitation or fear?

The biggest factor behind my hesitation is fear—fear of rejection, fear of judgment, fear of vulnerability. When someone shows interest in me, my instinct is to run. I’ll give my number, chat for a bit, but then I ghost. It’s easier to push people away than to face the possibility of them walking away after I disclose.

I also struggle with feeling like I’m not “normal” anymore. Even though I know that millions of people live with this diagnosis, it’s hard to shake the stigma. The world can be cruel to people who are different, and I’ve internalized that. It’s overwhelming to think about letting someone into this part of my life, especially when I don’t know how they’ll react.

## Since you’ve had a difficult experience with disclosure, have you thought of any ways that might help make future conversations go more smoothly?

Yes, I’ve been thinking a lot about how to approach disclosure in a way that feels more natural and less intimidating. One thing I’ve realized is that timing matters. Disclosure doesn’t have to happen on the first date, but it should happen before things get too serious. I’ve started thinking of it as a step in the process of getting to know someone—not the defining moment.

I’ve also considered how I frame the conversation. Instead of focusing on the negative aspects, I want to emphasize how common herpes actually is and how it doesn’t define me. For example, I might say something like, “This is just one part of my health, and it’s something I manage responsibly. It doesn’t change who I am or what I have to offer in a relationship.”

Finding the right setting is important too. I’d want the conversation to happen in a private, comfortable place where we can talk openly. And if it doesn’t go well? I remind myself that their reaction says more about them than it does about me.

## In what ways do you feel your life or outlook has changed since your diagnosis, both personally and in terms of how you approach relationships?

My diagnosis has been a wake-up call in so many ways. At first, it felt like my life was over—that I’d never be able to date, love, or even feel normal again. But over time, I’ve started to see things differently.

One major shift has been learning to value myself beyond my physical health. I used to tie so much of my self-worth to how others perceived me, especially in romantic relationships. Now, I’m trying to focus on the things that truly matter: my kindness, my sense of humor, my passions. My diagnosis doesn’t take away any of those things.

In terms of relationships, I’ve become more intentional. I’m not looking for perfection, but I do want someone who’s compassionate and understanding. I’ve realized that I deserve a partner who values honesty and can see me for who I really am.

## What role, if any, has support from friends or online communities played in helping you navigate the dating world with this diagnosis?

Finding support has been a game-changer. At first, I felt completely alone, like no one could understand what I was going through. But then I discovered online communities where people share their stories and offer advice. Hearing from others who’ve been in my shoes made me feel less isolated.

There’s something incredibly comforting about connecting with people who just get it—who know what it’s like to navigate dating with herpes. They’ve shared tips, offered words of encouragement, and reminded me that my diagnosis doesn’t define me.

I’ve also opened up to a couple of close friends about my diagnosis. Their support has been invaluable. They’ve listened without judgment and reminded me that I’m still the same person I’ve always been. Having that kind of unconditional support has given me the courage to start thinking about dating again.

## Are there any particular moments when you’ve felt empowered or hopeful about finding a partner who understands your experience?

Yes, there have been moments of hope. Reading stories from others who’ve found love despite their diagnosis inspires me. I’ve seen people share how their partners responded with kindness and acceptance, and it makes me believe that I can have that, too.

One empowering moment for me was when I started to see my diagnosis as a test of character—for myself and for others. If someone can’t accept me for who I am, then they’re not the right person for me. That realization has given me a sense of agency and control over my journey.

## If you had advice to share with someone newly diagnosed and facing the same struggles with disclosure, what would you tell them?

To anyone who’s newly diagnosed, I’d say this: It’s okay to feel scared, angry, or even hopeless at first. Those feelings are valid. But please remember that you are not alone. Herpes is incredibly common, and it doesn’t change your worth or your ability to find love.

Take things one step at a time. Start by educating yourself about the condition—it’ll help you feel more confident when the time comes to disclose. And when you do disclose, focus on the facts and your own sense of self-worth. You are so much more than a diagnosis.

Most importantly, don’t give up on love or connection. There are people out there who will see you for who you truly are and appreciate everything you have to offer.

## You mentioned wanting to take "baby steps"—what are some small goals you might set for yourself to help ease back into the dating world?

I’m all about baby steps right now. One small goal is to start responding to people who show interest instead of ghosting them. Even if it’s just a short conversation, it’s a step toward breaking down the walls I’ve built.

Another goal is to practice self-love. That might mean journaling about my strengths, treating myself to something nice, or simply looking in the mirror and saying, “You’re enough.”

Eventually, I’d like to go on a casual date. It doesn’t have to lead to anything serious—I just want to remind myself what it feels like to connect with someone. From there, I’ll keep building, one step at a time.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for listening to my story. It’s not an easy one to share, but I hope it helps someone out there feel a little less alone. We’re all deserving of love, no matter what challenges we face.

**Also Read: Ahmed's** [**herpes journey**](https://www.shamelesspath.com/blog/std-stories/engaged-and-diagnosed-facing-stigma-as-a-muslim-med-student)

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